i want to write how im feeling but my heart cant believe it to be true my crying eyes keep crying at the thought of missing you. the reality that your heart your face your warm embrace my favorite place could be gone without a trace i can never replace this whole this empty space. these spaces between my fingers where your fingers perfectly fit, the days and nights of pure bliss, the fact that seeing you or the mere thought of being with you forever is the only thing that gets me thru my days and to have that ripped away by a choice you didn’t even make is not ok. i know youre worth the fight i feel it each day and every night i can’t describe where it comes from but when im with you i know everything will be alright. please please my little light bright stay with me for the rest of our lives its the only thing thats right, i pray that God gives us the faith,hope, and love to endure through these trials because honestly i dont know what i am going to do. the thought of you not around brings endless tears to my eyes and pain to my brain and stops my heart from fear and pain. i can’t do it, and i don’t think you can either you just dont want to admit it. everyday i go to work try to put on a smile but it doesn’t work because my looming fear that you may not be near conquers my will to move and im left numb looking only for your shoulder to cry on. nothing else matters but you the life we’ve made and come together thru. i miss you darling and i need you, and i only want to be yours, and for you only to be mine i need to want to have to, i love you always until the end of time (to be continued) …. <3 bG
