Disgusted
My dearest Tumblr,
in this entry i will expose a secret. which in fact is no secret it is a hard hittin relalization that has made me relapse into my old ways. back to the tedious countin of calories and carbs the less than 900 cal a day in take. i can’t do this anymore. every morning i wake up and dread to get dressed because i don’t feell sexy or cute anymore only sometimes. i can rememeber once upon a time when i felt pretty enough to stroll around in a pair of skinny jeans and a cami. but no i must hide. hide the fat that was once inside but now pertrudes and subdues my natural figure. curves are a must for me i love my hips and boobs but my stomach has over taken my shape my hourglass figure has all to quickly slipped away. so back i plung in to the 3 a day work outs and personal trainer sessions. i can’t do this anymore i REFUSE TO be unsatisfiesd any longer with myself. I refuse to be constantly compared to my oh so porportional younger sister who willingly flauts her six pack around I REFUSE. so starting tomorrow the schedule resumes.
WATER ONLY
SALAD (grilled chicken only)
TURKEY HAM CHEESE ONLY
FRUITS
VEGGIES
NO PASTA
NO BREAD
NO SWEETS
*reward-one glass of sweet tea at dinner*
Gym Routine
Sun-Sun
Mile, Abs, Mile, Arms repeat x3
Cool down with Dance stretching and practice
Mon, Wed, Fri, with trainer and 6am’s on Sat
I WILL NOT REST UNTIL I GET MY RESULTS THAT IS ALLL!!!!
